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I'll Take it All, with Your Love...

This past week at work was the most challenging, unpredictable and emotionally draining yet. Every week, or even every day, something happens that makes my mind boggle and I think that the scale of ridiculousness can't be tipped any further. But there's always something else. Another contradiction, another misunderstanding, another rumour. I am not used to not being able to trust the people I work with. It's something I'm told I will learn to handle, but the mere thought of having to play along while being lied to and gossiped about fills me with dread. That said, I still mean it when I say that I love my job. It's just another one of those pesky contradictions. The kids I teach are wonderful and every day I am reminded by their energy and their innocence that I am doing it for them, because they deserve a better education. And I love how much I am learning by being here. Having a BA and an MA is all well and good, but what I learn here means so much more to me. I learn how to be. I learn about cultural differences. I learn about friendship and deceit. I observe how wonderful and loving humans can be, as well as how dishonest and selfish some people really are. It's not easy. It's confusing and tiring but I thank God every day for all of it, for every second that I can be here and grow.

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  1. lucky28 December 2011 at 16:30

    I don't know if this happens in your home country, but here in Indonesia, "non-job matters" consume the energy that should be focused for work.

    But as you write, this is a good experience for you. Not everyone have the same opportunity as yours.

    Good luck and keep the spirit.
    *Life is not about a smooth-straight road, it is curvy and bumpy one*

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